[ Xiao experiences it all, as he did with Haruka's memory, as he did with Wei Wuxian's. He experiences Beel's love, his care, his pain, his anguish from a split second decision he was forced to make with no way to come out as the big brother he once was. Xiao knows what it's like to feel like a part of you is missing; he felt the same way, when his yaksha brothers and sisters fell. Experiencing this again twists his heart in a way he was fully anticipating, but he still feels unprepared for it, knowing who Beel is now.
Beel is kind. Beel is caring and loving. Xiao may have not been there when he went berserk during Vergilius' trial, but he's always known that Beel has a protective streak. This would explain why.
When the memory ends, Xiao seeks him out immediately. ]
[It's haunting, to have this memory come back so vividly. To ruminate on the Celestial War was something he found himself doing from time to time, especially while Belphegor had been missing. But this is something else entirely. A replaying that makes his stomach turn and his heart ache.
Xiao will find the demon out on the beach, seated in the surf with his arms wrapped against himself. He'll smell the adeptus long before he hears him, a brief turn of his head, before looking back out to the ocean.]
[ He frowns, and moves to take a seat next to Beel. He has a feeling they both know what they need to talk about.
Xiao looks over at him; the distance between them is small. He doesn't anticipate that Beel will try to leave, but it seems like there's no running from this. ]
...I saw what happened, between you and your siblings. I'm sorry, Beelzebub. [ ... ] I wish I'd learned this about you some other way.
[ Not in a way where it was out of Beel's control. ]
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Beel is kind. Beel is caring and loving. Xiao may have not been there when he went berserk during Vergilius' trial, but he's always known that Beel has a protective streak. This would explain why.
When the memory ends, Xiao seeks him out immediately. ]
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Xiao will find the demon out on the beach, seated in the surf with his arms wrapped against himself. He'll smell the adeptus long before he hears him, a brief turn of his head, before looking back out to the ocean.]
...Mn. Hi, Xiao.
Sorry. Were you looking for me?
KICKS DOWN THE DOOR
[ He frowns, and moves to take a seat next to Beel. He has a feeling they both know what they need to talk about.
Xiao looks over at him; the distance between them is small. He doesn't anticipate that Beel will try to leave, but it seems like there's no running from this. ]
...I saw what happened, between you and your siblings. I'm sorry, Beelzebub. [ ... ] I wish I'd learned this about you some other way.
[ Not in a way where it was out of Beel's control. ]