[ Perhaps Xiao should be more upset with Beel, but like all the other killers, they had their reasons. ... He assume so, anyway. It really always boils down to who loves who in the end, and Xiao won't pretend he's above it. If he was, he wouldn't have voted for himself. He wouldn't be feeling like he failed to protect one of his own.
He closes his eyes, gently presses his forehead against the bars blocking them from getting any closer.
He caves.
Xiao's shoulders hitch, and he lets out a stifled hiccup. He closes his eyes as they well up with tears, for the first time that Beel's seen – but it'd be the third time for Xiao, today. The third time that he's shed tears in centuries.
What he wouldn't give to bring Nona, Zelkov, and Alice back. What he wouldn't give to save Beel from this living nightmare. ]
Xiao has never felt so powerless before. He doesn't want pity for his past. He doesn't want people to feel for his suffering. It is just the way of the yaksha, in his eyes.
But this -- this request... Maybe it's the one thing he can work towards. He told Crea that his fight wouldn't be with anyone among them -- it was always with their captors. The island. Whatever brought them here.
Through his tears, he nods. His voice is quiet when he speaks next: ]
[His chest aches at the simple phrase, the closest to a goodbye he feels they might give to one another. But he doesn't want to say goodbye. He doesn't want to believe this will be the end.]
...I'll miss you, too, Xiao.
[His exhale of breath trembles.]
Don't hide yourself away. You have people who love you.
[ He will remember those words for as long as he lives. There may be times in which Xiao will not follow them, but for now, he will take Beel's words to heart.
They may be some of the last he'll ever hear from him. ]
I...will try not to.
[ His voice is still quiet and shaky through his tears. It really does feel like the end for them. ]
Tell Nona...that I love her. [ A pause. ] As much as I love you, and Crea. I will never forget what you have given me.
[ He stays in Beel's embrace for a little longer, though no amount of time will ever feel like it's enough. Saying farewell has never been easy, but it's been a while since he's truly had to say goodbye to someone he's loved.
When Xiao pulls back, his eyes are red and puffy, but he looks at Beel. He doesn't bother averting his gaze. He commits Beel's features to memory, swears that he will never forget one of the people who have added so much value to his life.
Despite the distance between them (which isn't all that large, admittedly), Xiao still doesn't look like he's going to leave just yet. ]
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He closes his eyes, gently presses his forehead against the bars blocking them from getting any closer.
He caves.
Xiao's shoulders hitch, and he lets out a stifled hiccup. He closes his eyes as they well up with tears, for the first time that Beel's seen – but it'd be the third time for Xiao, today. The third time that he's shed tears in centuries.
What he wouldn't give to bring Nona, Zelkov, and Alice back. What he wouldn't give to save Beel from this living nightmare. ]
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I'm going to find her. And I'm going to drag us back through hell on my own two feet, if I have to.
Xiao. Don't let them continue this. Okay? I'll have to carry the burden of my Sin.
But this... this game. It stops with us. It has to.
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Xiao has never felt so powerless before. He doesn't want pity for his past. He doesn't want people to feel for his suffering. It is just the way of the yaksha, in his eyes.
But this -- this request... Maybe it's the one thing he can work towards. He told Crea that his fight wouldn't be with anyone among them -- it was always with their captors. The island. Whatever brought them here.
Through his tears, he nods. His voice is quiet when he speaks next: ]
...I will miss you.
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...I'll miss you, too, Xiao.
[His exhale of breath trembles.]
Don't hide yourself away. You have people who love you.
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They may be some of the last he'll ever hear from him. ]
I...will try not to.
[ His voice is still quiet and shaky through his tears. It really does feel like the end for them. ]
Tell Nona...that I love her. [ A pause. ] As much as I love you, and Crea. I will never forget what you have given me.
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[He lets the silence sit for a second. His arms don't move. Until Xiao decides he's had enough, Beel will remain right where he is.]
You can stay as long as you want. I won't let anyone know you're here.
Let me look out for you one more time.
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When Xiao pulls back, his eyes are red and puffy, but he looks at Beel. He doesn't bother averting his gaze. He commits Beel's features to memory, swears that he will never forget one of the people who have added so much value to his life.
Despite the distance between them (which isn't all that large, admittedly), Xiao still doesn't look like he's going to leave just yet. ]
...I only wish I could have done the same.