I wanted to get some answers. But... maybe they were right. Maybe I should have just stayed where I was. Maybe whatever I did was just the most selfish thing I could have done.
And now three people are dead. Two of them because of me. I can't give the people they loved any answers, or peace. I can't do anything to fix it. And the way everyone started fighting when I left the beach...
I know that's my Sin that I need to bear. But even though I wanted to protect everyone... I just did the opposite.
I don't know if it would have been better to stay still. This place was greedy this week, and wanted more sacrifices that night. If you stayed in place, maybe one of the others awake would have sought you out.
Wondering about the should have and would haves will only weigh more and more heavier on you. You did what you thought was best at the time.
I could tell you my theories as to what happened that night, but in the end you will find out when you join them.
[Wang Lu isn't wrong. But it still feels impossible to accept that he did the best he could when couldn't remember what he even did in the first place.]
It's clear you weren't starving since you were left with quite a bit of snacks and- [ Ah ]
You know when you have one of those moments where you realize another theory much too late? I am now wondering if the bird blood was for you. If someone made you go in a frenzy intentionally.
My original idea was you got mad at seeing Nona like that.
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I wanted to get some answers. But... maybe they were right. Maybe I should have just stayed where I was. Maybe whatever I did was just the most selfish thing I could have done.
And now three people are dead. Two of them because of me. I can't give the people they loved any answers, or peace. I can't do anything to fix it. And the way everyone started fighting when I left the beach...
I know that's my Sin that I need to bear. But even though I wanted to protect everyone... I just did the opposite.
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Wondering about the should have and would haves will only weigh more and more heavier on you. You did what you thought was best at the time.
I could tell you my theories as to what happened that night, but in the end you will find out when you join them.
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[Wang Lu isn't wrong. But it still feels impossible to accept that he did the best he could when couldn't remember what he even did in the first place.]
Yeah. I... guess I can only guess at so much.
...
What do you think happened? I'd like to know.
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You know when you have one of those moments where you realize another theory much too late? I am now wondering if the bird blood was for you. If someone made you go in a frenzy intentionally.
My original idea was you got mad at seeing Nona like that.