well, i think i believe it. people keep sayingg stuff like that afterall. there's no real point in lying most of th time. charming is a new one.
i dont think about it a lot.
but does any of that make me better than anyone else? what makes you are me worth being able to text while someone else is stuck alone?
[ A short delay after, he adds-- ]
it makes me happy that a cool guy like you thought i was special enough though. so, thanks. and im sorry if i made you feel rejected. maybe im doing it right now. its not my intention, but maybe youre right.
[He doesn't know how to answer the question on worth. It feels too deeply entrenched for him to touch.]
it might not make you better to everyone
but it makes you better to at least someone
and if someone special thinks you're special, and their thoughts deserve to be right, then maybe its okay to think you're special. even if it's just for one person.
[Easier said than done, but he knows sometimes its easier for him to focus on others than himself.]
no apologies. i think you're a good guy tylor. but im not saying it for me
youve got someone out there who loves you a lot right?
nono, people think im dumb. im not that dumb actually i dont really care if people think that though.
but yea, so tell me anything you want! ill listen. and it doesn't have to be important. just something you did, think, or anything about yourself you want to share. chattting with friends is supposed to be fun.
oh uh, im outside .see?
[ Well, that sure is a blurry photo of a Japanese city street. The weather is exactly like it should be for whatever time it is in Japan. ]
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its really hard sometimes right
are there good things people have told you that made you feel happy?
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made me happy? well i dont think im actually pretty, so that doesnt count.
[ The next parts come piecemeal but in quick succession ]
but i guess
that im honest with everybody. affectionate. that it's okay if i dont fit everyones comfort levels, but its still good that i've got a lot to give.
that im optimistic, charming, and want people to have a good time.
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But he feels if he can maybe help Tylor see this in some other way, maybe it might make sense.]
do you believe any of that is true
if someone told you that it means they thought you were special enough in their eyes to say something
saying theyre wrong and saying that the happiness you feel when they say that is wrong can make people feel rejected
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i dont think about it a lot.
but does any of that make me better than anyone else? what makes you are me worth being able to text while someone else is stuck alone?
[ A short delay after, he adds-- ]
it makes me happy that a cool guy like you thought i was special enough though. so, thanks.
and im sorry if i made you feel rejected. maybe im doing it right now.
its not my intention, but maybe youre right.
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it might not make you better to everyone
but it makes you better to at least someone
and if someone special thinks you're special, and their thoughts deserve to be right, then maybe its okay to think you're special. even if it's just for one person.
[Easier said than done, but he knows sometimes its easier for him to focus on others than himself.]
no apologies. i think you're a good guy tylor. but im not saying it for me
youve got someone out there who loves you a lot right?
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right, right. no sorries.
yes, i do. are you saying all of this for them?
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ive been worried about all of you
but i know it's hard to talk about things to people you love sometimes
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well you dont have to worrry about me. i'll be okay. i've missed people before. im alive.
but you can talk to me too, you know.
lotta people thinkim dumb, so can't promise such great advice like urs
we have people we care about in common, don't we? so let's be good friends.
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you don't have to have advice. friends will listen anyway.
what are you doing right now? you're making a lot of typos.
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i dont really care if people think that though.
but yea, so tell me anything you want! ill listen. and it doesn't have to be important.
just something you did, think, or anything about yourself you want to share. chattting with friends is supposed to be fun.
oh uh, im outside .see?
[ Well, that sure is a blurry photo of a Japanese city street. The weather is exactly like it should be for whatever time it is in Japan. ]
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[Considering it is nearly 3am in the United States, it looks like early afternoon in what blurry remnants of the picture are visible.]
what do you do again? you never said
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youre unemployed?
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and you play football!
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what kind of job do you want to do? i don't know a lot about the other parts of the world except for food
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reallY? have you had one of these before?
[ it's a photo of an ordinary unagi bento from the convenience store. only half eaten.
Because he doesn't know what he wants to do, so he immediately forgets about the first question. ]
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you dont want to be a bento box do you
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if I was a bento, I'd want to be a really tasty one.
you would be a karaage bento.
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tylor is it ok to not know what you wanna do
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oh sure it is. i have no clue!
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dont you get worried?
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all you can do is your best and the rest will work out the way it's supposed to.
worrying never helps any.
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[ --rapid fire texts ]
haha
w i mean why would i?
i live my life the way i want.
i think everyone should, do what they want, the way they want to
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i just figured you must have people that trust on you or rely on you somewhere
no family?
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