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gluttoning) wrote2023-08-28 10:39 am
gluttoning) wrote2023-08-28 10:39 am
SATURDAY NIGHT FOOTBALL (The World)
[FOOTBALL NOISES
aka this for IRL football watching or any communications outside Fragment. Yay football. :)]
[FOOTBALL NOISES
aka this for IRL football watching or any communications outside Fragment. Yay football. :)]
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hani walks into the waiting room like they belong there, the same way they’d walked into morgan’s empty apartment. and they will not leave until they get some answers.
there’s a corner of the room that’s empty of the brothers; that is where they choose to sit. no one looks happy in this room, certainly, but hani looks… frighteningly still for all the chaos clattering around their mind, tumbling down the sharp edges of their heart, and into the pit of their stomach. ]
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He remembers this part too. An echo of Morgan's stay. A different situation. A different hospital. But similar. Though for Tylor, even that all feels longer ago than it was. Because the present him, M&M, alive and breathing, is sitting just across the way, beside Cael.
Tylor'd helped them all here, still with some energy to spare after restraining, carrying, and consoling since Bear's injury. Even when he runs low, he can always find more for Hani or Morgan.
It feels natural, just the two of them, to switch to Japanese. ]
すべてが大丈夫になる。
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[ doubt keeps hani’s tone low, words flowing through numb lips. they press close to justy, seeking more of his open, offered comfort.
here’s everything running through their thoughts, only for him to hear because they can tell him anything. some things are just easier to admit in the space between them. ]
どうしたらいいのかい？ガニ君も、モルガン君も、ビアー君も……… それでもしジャスティ君になにかあったら、僕どうするのかい？こころが壊れちゃうかも………
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[ Tylor's response starts out light yet genuine, meaning every word. But Hani's own words filter in, and he can't help but hold them a little tighter. It's hard. He resists the brief spike of an urge to break away now instead, before it has a chance to hurt so bad. Before Hani spirals into nothingness again.
He doesn't want anyone to hurt for his own wants. But he wants them as long as he can have them. Selfishly. ]
たとえ何かが起こっても、ハニーに再び幸せを見つけてほしいと思っている。 心が立ち直れなかったら、本当に悲しくなる。
試してみませんか、私のために約束してくれますか？
[ By the end, he is too polite, a quiet request that matters to him.
And then he's light again, with a honey joke and a little laugh as he runs his hand over their arm; squeezing that more playfully as he grins and then says it-- ]
ハニーは私の蜂蜜だからね？
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they bury their face into his arm. they want to listen, but they don’t. the promise is right there on hani’s lips, ready to be heard.
they swallow it down. selfishly. ]
イヤだ。したくないんだ。僕たち、ずっと一緒だから。
[ one day, morgan might leave them both. eventually his path might diverge from theirs. if justy leaves too, if hani has to say goodbye to the two halves of their heart, what will be left? will there be anything at all? ]
約束できない。したくない。ごめんね、ごめんね………
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[ Tylor says it lowly, free hand seeking Hani's head, to stroke their hair. His slouch over them is more protective than lazy. His voice is low, even if no one else can understand them. Probably. ]
もちろん3人でずっと一緒にいたいでいつまでも幸せでいてほしいだ。
[ A sigh. ]
しかし、永遠に生きられる人はいないで幸せを決して諦めてほしくないのです。
私なしでは幸せになろうともしないのですか？ 本当に？
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[ one word, nearly toneless. everything after is said under their breath, knowing he’ll catch every word. but only him. they don’t want to be brittle in front of bear’s brothers. ]
ジャスティ君いなくても、僕．．．生きていく。それくらいできる。
[ that’s the most they can offer, something realistic for them. a promise they can keep. asking for happiness at that point seems nigh impossible.
意味ない、意味ない
if there’s only one left, out of three, what would be their purpose past simply existing until they reach their own entrance to 「黄泉」…? ]
ジャスティ君のせいじゃない。僕、自分勝手で、欲張りだよ。
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ハニー, ハニー, ハニー. ]
今ハニーをとても愛してハニーはその気持ちを決して忘れること。
[ That's all, until the rest tumbles out of Hani. His fingers curl just a touch. ]
Shh. [ comforting, soft, in no way a shushing. ] ハニーもせいじゃないよ。まだ愛している。ぼくに悪い人で壊れた人じゃない。You're just right, 覚えていないの？
ハニーはぼくとモルガンの素晴らしくユニークなハニーだ。そんな大切なことを忘れないでください。
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うん、この気持ちは消えない。僕、この気持ちを、この愛をあきらめない。忘れられない。
[ sometimes. sometimes they have the urge to just sit in his things, wear his clothes and be surrounded by all little parts of him scattered around the apartment. every good and messy thing. every cluttered part of him charms them, every simple desire they want to take as their own and grant it to him.
but some things aren’t possible for them, and they can only offer what is. ]
君たちいなくても．．．そのとき、僕は幸せを見つけられないかも。でもね、それまでの幸福の思い出を決して忘れないと。
[ memories engraved on their lonely heart should they arrive at the end alone. that's why… ]
大丈夫さ。
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[ And yet, the way he says it, the way he presses another light kiss to Hani's hair by its end, is pure and honest contentment. Because Hani is enough, as they always will be for as long as Tylor is permitted to stay by their side. Accepted wholly, thoroughly.
Seriousness can only ever last so long with Tylor. So despite the warmth, he playfully mirrors their words back again. Just like they'd done to him. ]
ハニーも大丈夫さ。
[ There's a squeeze, a brief pause, before-- ]
ねーお腹すいたの？
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hani brings his hand to their lips, holding it in both of theirs like a wish, like hope. they press a long kiss to the back of it and murmur a spell in three words. ]
ううん、まだ。あとで、家族として………モルガン君も、お兄さんも。[ they switch back to english. ] All of us, together.
… If we don’t feed him, he might not eat.
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[ It's the first time he's thought of it like that since his parents. A comfortable warmth settles in his core at Hani's phrasing, melting him a little more subtly against them.
But Tylor follows seamlessly back into English. ]
Oh, you're right. Let's go later then, all together.
[ For now, peace. ]