TYLOR <----> BARRETT

[gluttoning]

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[gluttoning]

sometimes

if someone cares about me I want to know if they're upset about something

and if they tell me something good I don't want to ignore their feelings by telling them they're wrong

rapid fire texts

[tylorific]

it doesnt upset you too?

do you think theyre wrong a lot?

[gluttoning]

it happens sometimes. for both

but its why i need to listen


we're supposed to be talking about you though. not me

[tylorific]

oh yeah

sorry, i guess i just like hearing people talk about themselves

2/2

[tylorific]

or reading. i guess

i'm sorry

people asking that is new, isn't it funny no ones asked me before them? and you? ha ha ww

[gluttoning]

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which part

[tylorific]

oh. i don't know. both? all of it?

people usually agree with me when i say i'm no better than anyone else. they dont that many questions.
so i've never thought about it this hard before.

i dont mind it right now.

[gluttoning]

i dont think i would have asked when we first met

when you dont have anything good to say about yourself even after while though it can make the people around you frustrated and sad

i dont think its because we get mad

it just feels bad to take a lot of praise from someone and never be allowed to give it

[tylorific]

oh i see.

well i dont want to make anyone sad, but how do you find good things to say about yourself?

[gluttoning]

[yeah he figured]

its really hard sometimes right

are there good things people have told you that made you feel happy?

[tylorific]

i dont feel bad about myself though. i just never really think about it.

made me happy? well i dont think im actually pretty, so that doesnt count.

[ The next parts come piecemeal but in quick succession ]

but i guess

that im honest with everybody. affectionate. that it's okay if i dont fit everyones comfort levels, but its still good that i've got a lot to give.

that im optimistic, charming, and want people to have a good time.

[gluttoning]

[It's not something he recognizes that he himself has said. He's too tired. Too torn apart.

But he feels if he can maybe help Tylor see this in some other way, maybe it might make sense.]

do you believe any of that is true

if someone told you that it means they thought you were special enough in their eyes to say something

saying theyre wrong and saying that the happiness you feel when they say that is wrong can make people feel rejected

[tylorific]

well, i think i believe it. people keep sayingg stuff like that afterall. there's no real point in lying most of th time. charming is a new one.

i dont think about it a lot.

but does any of that make me better than anyone else? what makes you are me worth being able to text while someone else is stuck alone?

[ A short delay after, he adds-- ]

it makes me happy that a cool guy like you thought i was special enough though. so, thanks.
and im sorry if i made you feel rejected. maybe im doing it right now.
its not my intention, but maybe youre right.

[gluttoning]

[He doesn't know how to answer the question on worth. It feels too deeply entrenched for him to touch.]

it might not make you better to everyone

but it makes you better to at least someone

and if someone special thinks you're special, and their thoughts deserve to be right, then maybe its okay to think you're special. even if it's just for one person.

[Easier said than done, but he knows sometimes its easier for him to focus on others than himself.]

no apologies. i think you're a good guy tylor. but im not saying it for me

youve got someone out there who loves you a lot right?

[tylorific]

maybe you're right. you're pretty insightful y know,but i think ive said thatbefore....

right, right. no sorries.


yes, i do. are you saying all of this for them?

[gluttoning]

yeah

ive been worried about all of you

but i know it's hard to talk about things to people you love sometimes

[tylorific]

oh, i see.

well you dont have to worrry about me. i'll be okay. i've missed people before. im alive.

but you can talk to me too, you know.
lotta people thinkim dumb, so can't promise such great advice like urs

we have people we care about in common, don't we? so let's be good friends.

[gluttoning]

morgan wouldn't want you to call yourself dumb, tylor

you don't have to have advice. friends will listen anyway.



what are you doing right now? you're making a lot of typos.

[tylorific]

nono, people think im dumb. im not that dumb actually
i dont really care if people think that though.

but yea, so tell me anything you want! ill listen. and it doesn't have to be important.
just something you did, think, or anything about yourself you want to share. chattting with friends is supposed to be fun.


oh uh, im outside .see?

[ Well, that sure is a blurry photo of a Japanese city street. The weather is exactly like it should be for whatever time it is in Japan. ]

[gluttoning]

then dont worry about whether your advice is bad or not.

[Considering it is nearly 3am in the United States, it looks like early afternoon in what blurry remnants of the picture are visible.]

what do you do again? you never said

[tylorific]

oh. well i dont do anything.

[gluttoning]

oh

youre unemployed?

[tylorific]

yep.

and you play football!

[gluttoning]

yeah. my team won today, remember?

what kind of job do you want to do? i don't know a lot about the other parts of the world except for food

[tylorific]

that's right, i said congratulations already too!

reallY? have you had one of these before?

[ it's a photo of an ordinary unagi bento from the convenience store. only half eaten.


Because he doesn't know what he wants to do, so he immediately forgets about the first question. ]