TYLOR <----> BARRETT

[gluttoning]

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[gluttoning]

i don't know. but i dont think i see them the same way you do. i dont think i can love people like that.

i don't really know what to ask. you don't really seem to think you're anything special, if I remember right.

i want to know why you think that

[tylorific]

everyone is different, no one has to love anyone else in any certain way.

because im just like everyone else.


[ There's a longer pause this time. And maybe it's obvious that there was a point in time where that's all he would've said. ]

isn't it better, ,to have expectations you can actually meet?

[gluttoning]

expectations?

from who?

[tylorific]

anyone. yourself.
i dont exepct myself to be anyone but me.



so i dont think my life is more important than anyone elsess.

[gluttoning]

why does that matter

[tylorific]

That's why, I don't think im anything special

just me

[gluttoning]

even though people around you think differently?

[tylorific]

welll, people can think whatever they like.

does what other people think matte ralot to you?

[gluttoning]

sometimes

if someone cares about me I want to know if they're upset about something

and if they tell me something good I don't want to ignore their feelings by telling them they're wrong

rapid fire texts

[tylorific]

it doesnt upset you too?

do you think theyre wrong a lot?

[gluttoning]

it happens sometimes. for both

but its why i need to listen


we're supposed to be talking about you though. not me

[tylorific]

oh yeah

sorry, i guess i just like hearing people talk about themselves

2/2

[tylorific]

or reading. i guess

i'm sorry

people asking that is new, isn't it funny no ones asked me before them? and you? ha ha ww

[gluttoning]

[...]

which part

[tylorific]

oh. i don't know. both? all of it?

people usually agree with me when i say i'm no better than anyone else. they dont that many questions.
so i've never thought about it this hard before.

i dont mind it right now.

[gluttoning]

i dont think i would have asked when we first met

when you dont have anything good to say about yourself even after while though it can make the people around you frustrated and sad

i dont think its because we get mad

it just feels bad to take a lot of praise from someone and never be allowed to give it

[tylorific]

oh i see.

well i dont want to make anyone sad, but how do you find good things to say about yourself?

[gluttoning]

[yeah he figured]

its really hard sometimes right

are there good things people have told you that made you feel happy?

[tylorific]

i dont feel bad about myself though. i just never really think about it.

made me happy? well i dont think im actually pretty, so that doesnt count.

[ The next parts come piecemeal but in quick succession ]

but i guess

that im honest with everybody. affectionate. that it's okay if i dont fit everyones comfort levels, but its still good that i've got a lot to give.

that im optimistic, charming, and want people to have a good time.

[gluttoning]

[It's not something he recognizes that he himself has said. He's too tired. Too torn apart.

But he feels if he can maybe help Tylor see this in some other way, maybe it might make sense.]

do you believe any of that is true

if someone told you that it means they thought you were special enough in their eyes to say something

saying theyre wrong and saying that the happiness you feel when they say that is wrong can make people feel rejected

[tylorific]

well, i think i believe it. people keep sayingg stuff like that afterall. there's no real point in lying most of th time. charming is a new one.

i dont think about it a lot.

but does any of that make me better than anyone else? what makes you are me worth being able to text while someone else is stuck alone?

[ A short delay after, he adds-- ]

it makes me happy that a cool guy like you thought i was special enough though. so, thanks.
and im sorry if i made you feel rejected. maybe im doing it right now.
its not my intention, but maybe youre right.

[gluttoning]

[He doesn't know how to answer the question on worth. It feels too deeply entrenched for him to touch.]

it might not make you better to everyone

but it makes you better to at least someone

and if someone special thinks you're special, and their thoughts deserve to be right, then maybe its okay to think you're special. even if it's just for one person.

[Easier said than done, but he knows sometimes its easier for him to focus on others than himself.]

no apologies. i think you're a good guy tylor. but im not saying it for me

youve got someone out there who loves you a lot right?

[tylorific]

maybe you're right. you're pretty insightful y know,but i think ive said thatbefore....

right, right. no sorries.


yes, i do. are you saying all of this for them?

[gluttoning]

yeah

ive been worried about all of you

but i know it's hard to talk about things to people you love sometimes

[tylorific]

oh, i see.

well you dont have to worrry about me. i'll be okay. i've missed people before. im alive.

but you can talk to me too, you know.
lotta people thinkim dumb, so can't promise such great advice like urs

we have people we care about in common, don't we? so let's be good friends.